You're acting out again. Your paranoia plays out in your head, over and over. Careful now, you're going to choke yourself. Keep doing this to yourself, and you'll see, the same thing will happen again. Doesn't this feel like deja vu?
If you can't help but keep feeling this way, at least contain it. Keep it to yourself. No one has to know. It doesn't matter.
Because the last time you failed to, you lost your best friend, remember? He left you, because you couldn't keep it together.
I can't do this.
