I'm not. Don't. Please.

My self-esteem's completely fucked, and anxieties are getting the best of me. I can't deliver well at work, and I keep screwing up. I'm growing more paranoid of losing the people I love because they'd get sick of me. I'm rendered too fucking scared to care, and I keep questioning people's intentions. It gets so fucking lonely but I hate even more being in a crowd. I can't even fucking cry for relief sake. God, someone help. Please. Fuck.