No suicide or mental breakdown is ever sudden. It is the result of an unseen deterioration, a progression of desperation and hopelessness that accumulates and becomes insurmountable for any soul to bear. You sway between numbness and anxieties, holding on to whatever little sanity you have.
My sins have come to bear its fruit of grief upon me. But I'm not going to down without a fight, because I will finish this, once and for all; regardless of the approach...even if it means more lies. I only pray once this is over, the slate can be wiped clean again. But for now, I need to overcome this. Please.
